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Sorry for the lack of post for a while there... I had family in town and I intended to post before we left but I got to busy and didn't have anything to post about, actually I still don't. Actually here is a lovely barbeque sauce recipe like a week late for fourth of july, thats just how my life has been going recently...


Barbeque sauce:
5 cloves
2T fennel
1t cumin
1t black pepper
3t salt
Rosemary
Garlic-crushed
5 bay leaves
Thyme
Zest of 1 orange
4t. paprika
8T olive oil
1 bottle ketchup
1/2 bottle balsamic vinegar
2T brown sugar

crush cloves, cumin, fennel, black pepper and salt into a powder. heat olive oil in bottom of medium pot, add bay leaves and simmer. remove bay leaves after about 5 minutes. Cut garlic, rosemary, orange zest, thyme and paprika into a paste and add to olive oil along with the powder. Wait about 5 minutes then add balsamic, ketchup and brown sugar and simmer for 10 minutes.

THere, that is my actual evidence that I cooked ALL week long... for 23 people. We went out some though. I had this whole plan worked up that took me forever, then when the first meal went wrong(which happened to be on the second day) I freaked out and got stupid and emotional for a while,then the plan was ripped up... so we just took it as it came from then on.
I don't know whats up with me right now... maybe just all those people that I only see twice a year leaving, im just kinda in a daze, I was standing in the kitchen and my dad was eating and my mom offered him more turkey and I just absent-mindedly answered no thanks. . . I'm a vegetarian and I wasn't eating dinner at the moment, plus she hadn't cooked for me.. that doesn't seem so weird but its just not like me, I know what I eat, just not today.

I was wandering earlier, what do alllll those letters at the bottoms of the screen mean?? They seem so unnecessarily random to me, like I was somewhere earlier and there was just a whole line of A's, does anyone know what these mean??